It's weird, Eminem really is a horror core rapper, or whatever the hell Celph Titled calls it. Just vivid imagery, violent, aggressive, brooding. If he didn't have the backing of Dr. Dre he would've been like the countless guys on Baby Grande. I listen to Cage and he has so much talent, but the production is rougher, the delivery is rougher, the guy just doesn't have the gloss the big studios can put on your albums, the direction and money a guy like Dre can give. There's not the money in being that kind of rapper typically. You gotta make the radio tracks, and Eminem decided to make some, Cage, Vinnie Paz, those guys never did. No matter how many tracks Fort Minor and DJ Green Lantern puts them on you can't match the backing power of Dre. It's just sick to hear one guy who's a fucking nutcase get on these tracks and just fucking kill it. As much as I love Lil Wayne and Drake their verses are just so smooth, to end that track with an Eminem verse just sounds like a warning about what's to come. It's just an exclamation point. His delivery is so much more rapid fire, his wordplay so dizzying, so much more intense. I can't wait to hear him on more tracks.
Sorry I'm done being a giddy white fanboy.
I'm sitting here in Macau, looking at the amazing view outside my window. I have a beautiful view of the harbor and the city. This is one of the best hotel rooms Stars has ever given to me. I just wish the city was a little more interesting than it was, since I don't really want to play poker and I'm done with the main event. I'm going to go out tonight and do the standard chase Asian chicks, have two gin and tonics to keep me loose, nothing much more because I feel like having one semi-sober person in our group is the good play, and I don't think anyone else is going to do it. Last thing we need is a shit storm started in China. I don't think our American passports are going to garner us much sympathy here.
I've been having a good time here, trying to enjoy hanging with poker players because I don't know when the next one of these I'm going to do. I've gotten to hang out with Intervention, and that's been great. He's just a goofball, but the guy talked me through deep makeup and other bullshit when I started. He's just an awesome guy.
I just don't know when I'm going to see these guys next, Queso, Randallin, etc. Guys I've been sharing hotel rooms and buses and taxis and beers for years. I'm pretty set to get off this carousel. I want to start working out and having a stable home base again. The only question is where. I'm not sure how long it's going to take Buki to bail out of Vail, he's been there for years, and I don't want to rush the guy. He's a grown ass man with obligations to fill, he needs his time.
I'm toying with the idea of Seattle. All my friends and family are there. I've thought about going back to school, just to learn about languages, and fun classes, I don't give a shit about a degree and going into the corporate work force to slice my soul into tiny little bite-sized chunks. Figure I could fetch quite a bit of ass being a poker player who is a little older and is just going to school for shits and giggles, probably would give me a leg up on all the little babied shits who cum on themselves to hentai before they run to class.
I could just run to Costa Rica earlier. I think I want to go see a therapist when I'm in Seattle, but my Mom said she thought I could do it in Costa Rica. I feel okay most of the time but I stil just get angry for no reason and create problems when I shouldn't. If I didn't have the best friends in the world behind me to make sure I was okay I don't know how I'd be. I've gotten better over the years but I still think I need to get my shit together, figure out some things I don't really feel like talking about in this blog anymore. I have some baggage I've never really dealt with, and I don't want my family and friends to have to deal with my bullshit, and I sure as hell am tired of dealing with my own bullshit and mood swings. Like for just all the freedom and good people I have in my life I shouldn't be so out of it, moody, and confrontational like I am. I just keep putting it off but I think I should just get my shit together now, be a man about it, like I haven't been.
Shit, Carter just showed up with some Johnie Walker Black Lable. Gots to go.
